I hope ure missing me as much as I am.

damn. i hate it when school takes a toll on ur schedule. I've been trying my utmost best to be understanding but its been really long since we last watched a movie or even go on a date. *sighs*

I guess this is the only place i can vent it all out without him shaking his head, calling me immature. His exams are on JAN 2011. yes u read it right, NEXT YEAR, and he's preparing like a mad man now. I know thats his dreams, I know I should be supportive. I know I should be more independent, but the thought of him gng Perth for at least 8 mths next year stink.

I dont know if im able to survive through this. I just got this feeling that I'll be missing him so badly till it becomes toxic and i would then call it quits cos its too hard to bear. Or i'll be fucking emotional and he'll be sick and tired, and therefore calling it quits. sighs.

All I want is to be able to spend more time with you before SQ kidnap u again for the second time. The wounds from the previous 3 weeks of waiting are still fresh and raw. No one would be able to understand how I felt, how i made it through. I dont know how I made it through, in fact Im surprised that i survived cos i was literally on auto pilot. sighs. this is so bad.

Hi World, Im finally back, after a long long rest (:

Loads of stuffs happened, people come and go. Im glad that I managed to pull through with the support of my loved ones!

School started *bleh*. I've never been a huge fan of school since childhood. I had memories of myself faking asthma so that my mom will be able to bring me home. That was only nursery ;P Anyway bottomline is, school's not my favourite place on earth and sometimes I have no idea why im doing what im doing now. To fulfil a promise to my folks on flying for 2 years then coming back to the books again? Oh wells, I guess im stuck here till godknowswhen. Thank god im not working, thank god for being able to sleep in late, thank god for the non-existant morning rush for me, thank god for everything a student get to enjoy! Now, I feel so much better!

After reading my past entries, I kinda missed my old life. A new baby(bag) every month, endless amt of pocket money, a holiday to anywhere is possible as long as im on holiday, dining at hotels.. I was leading the taitai life which I yearn for in future at the age of 20. It was a fairytale every single day and I literally thanked god for the immerse good fortune. Right now, though im still taking allowance, I put a limit on how much I should be taking. Just enough for the month to go by, just enough for me to do regular meals out with friends, just enough to pay the bills.

I realised that ive been spurging on unnecessary stuffs, spending like crazy without a worry and most importantly im living in my lil bubble which will probably burst if I ever stretch it more than it can take. Therefore, im proud to say that yours truly has not been shopping for a mega 1 year! No bags, no accessories, no heels, minimum clothes which i got from cheryl's blogshop!

And yes, i had enough clothes, bags and accessories to last me for a year even without shopping (:

I changed myself for the better, I changed because I wanted somebody to be proud of me, to see me in a different light, as a sensible woman, not a spoilt brat who will run to daddy for help when things goes wrong. I guess I succeeded in a way cos we're together for 13 lovely months and things are still going on strong. Im sometimes that spoilt brat when things dont go my way but he still managed to patiently explained what went wrong and made me see the situation on a different light.

So, there, a brand new me. A more humble, a more easygoing and a more sensible me, still, dont try to step on my toes (:  Sometimes, i'll still unleash that bitchy side of me. thinking of which, I did at causeway point last weekend.. long story. Another time perhaps (:

XOXO

Linda!

Its offically 5 months since we got together. I've never been happier (: